看了條新聞：
8月14日上午10點，劉子歌的谷歌搜索量突然激增，她的最高搜索量居然達到了最低搜索量的 2602 倍，高搜索量持續了兩個多小時。可見被這匹“純黑馬”震驚之余，國人爆發的熱情。

看到之后的第一反應是：
The authors unfairly assumes that the 高搜索量 was the result of 黑馬奪冠。 The only reason for this casual relationship is that 黑馬奪冠 occurred before the 高搜索量. However, this might not be the case. ......（然后開始下意識想要舉反例，比如說正好爆出緋聞啊,blabla）


瘋掉了。。。我要殺了ETS...

TOPIC: ISSUE70 - "In any profession-business, politics, education, government-those in power should step down after five years. The surest path to success for any enterprise is revitalization through new leadership."
DATE: 2008-8-2 17:18:18

提綱：
有保留同意
Body Paragraph:
1. 更新領導者來保持活力
i. 長期處于權力高峰容易獨斷/腐化。
ii. 新鮮觀點與方法注入

2. 5年是個不錯的period : 太短不穩定，太長沒效果。
3. Neverthelss
i. 不一定非要5年
ii. 特殊行業需要保持穩定：Greenspan 20

In general, I agree with the author that the man in power should be changed regularly. It's crucial to keep the enterprise or government fresh. People may believe that a great leader should be at the position as long as possible to benefit the organization, yet this is not always the case, as discussed followed.

One reason for my fundamental agreement with the speaker is that in order to keep the organization running normally, the leader cannot be always the same. People who are always at the peak of power will easily be arbitrary, or even corrupted. Although this view might seem pessimistic, this is the truth. Since they are always full of power; and few things can restrict them. They will get used to ordering without discussing with others. After a long time, they may forget how to ask others' opinion or how to compromise. Moreover, a man, no matter how great he is, has his own shortage in view. Thus we need some more thoughts and methods to be entered. This can be easily accomplished by changing the leader regularly. Consider the example of Chairman Mao. No one will doubt he is one of the greatest leaders we have ever seen. However, he made a serious mistake in his later time. In contrast, George Washington retired after being the president of U.S. for eight years. History proves his decision was correct.

Another reason why I agree with the claim is that five years is an excellent period. As discussed earlier, we change the leadership mainly in order to revitalize. Thus, if the period is too long, the enterprise may already have been lack of vitality; and the effect will not be so good. On the other side, if the leadership is changed too frequently, for example, one year, it is obviously that the relationship altered too rapidly to become a good workplace. All people are busily becoming familiar with the new environment. Therefore five years is a good balance for the two sides.

We have recognized that the movement of leadership every five years is beneficial; nevertheless it should not be obeyed without exception. First of all, besides five years, other time period may also be reasonable. Consider the example of the U.S. presidential election. As it is known to all, it is held every four years, and each president can hold his or her position for at most eight years. And I think this is also a significantly good system, for it ensures the vitality in American politics while encourages the excellent governor to prevail their idea. Furthermore, in certain situation the leader can be stable, as it did in the case of Alan Greenspan, the 13th Chairman of the Federal Reserve, who has been in the office for about 20 years. When there are only few people competent for the job, or the policy made should keep steady, it is sometimes necessary, and even desirable, for the leaders remain unchanged.

In sum, to guarantee success, any organization should revitalize through new leadership. Admittedly an alternation for every five years is a good idea; other reasonable methods can also lead to success. Yet this is not the golden rule and can be invalid in some special occasion.

TOPIC: ARGUMENT238 - The following appeared in a memorandum from the president of Mira Vista College to the college's board of trustees.

"At nearby Green Mountain College, which has more business courses and more job counselors than does Mira Vista College, 90 percent of last year's graduating seniors had job offers from prospective employers. But at Mira Vista College last year, only 70 percent of the seniors who informed the placement office that they would be seeking employment had found full-time jobs within three months after graduation, and only half of these graduates were employed in their major field of study. To help Mira Vista's graduates find employment, we must offer more courses in business and computer technology and hire additional job counselors to help students with their resumés and interviewing skills."
DATE: 2008-8-2 20:36:33

提綱：
1. 統計數據不可靠，兩所學校的就業率不可比較。
2. 讓步攻擊，有其他原因可以導致找工作的不同。
3. 再次讓步，MVC不一定能夠照搬GMC的經驗。

In this memo Mira Vista College (MVC)'s president recommends that in order to help MVC's graduates find job, MVC should provide more courses in business and computer technology and more job counselors. To support this recommendation, the president points out that Green Mountain College (GMC) has more business courses and more counselors. The president also indicate(可以用indicate表示指出么？) that GMC has higher employment rate according to statistics. However, it is problematic in several respects, rendering the argument unconvincing as it stands.

To begin with, the president fails to assure me that the statistic of MVC accurately reflects the employment rate. Without evidence that these seniors related to the statistic can represent the students of whole college, it is hasty to draw any conclusions about the rate. Perhaps it is most of such kind of students who felt unlikely to find a job that inform the office. Also, the president does not offer what kind of jobs the 90 percent of the GMC’s last year’s graduates find, perhaps the jobs they found are not as better as MVC’s. Furthermore, the president did not provide data about how long do students usually find their job. It is entirely possible that students need more time than three months to find a satisfied job. All those make the employment rates of two schools incomparable. Thus the president cannot conclude that GMC’s graduates are more likely to find job.

Even I concede that it is easier for GMC's graduates to find a job, the recommendation relies on the assumption that offering certain more courses and advisors was responsible for the higher job-found rate of GMC. The president overlooks other possible causes. For example, perhaps GMC's students have higher score than MVC's students, or perhaps GMC has better teachers. Either scenario would provide an alternative explanation for the difference of two colleges' graduates when they are looking for a job. It is also possible that although MVC has more such courses and advisors, since GMC has fewer students, which causes GMC has the same, or even more courses and advisors per each student.

Finally, even assuming that it is because of certain courses and counselors that make the GMC's graduates easier to be employed, the president fails to consider possible differences between GMC and MVC that might bring about a different result. For instance, MVC has been famous for other majors, such as physics, architecture. Therefore the future students of MVC are less interested in business courses. In this case, students will found the new offered courses tedious. Thus it will not take effect.

In sum, the president has not convinced me that it will help MVC's students to find a job after taking these measures. To bolster the argument, the president must offer more evidence which can prove that MVC's students are hard to find a job. To better assess the argument, I would also need to know some details of GMC and MVC; particularly, I would need to know the capabilities and interests of MVC's students.

一個在windows下可以無縫訪問ext2分區的軟件，裝好以后會多出一些分區～
還不錯，呵呵～～


http://www.fs-driver.org/

不知道為什么，這兩天腦子里經常回蕩著這首歌的"ENDLESS RAIN, FALL ON MY HEART kokoro no kizu ni,
LET ME FORGET ALL OF THE HATE, ALL OF THE SADNES............ “部分。。。
難道是因為單詞背崩潰了神經錯亂了。。。-_-bbbbbbbbbbb

記得zdw曾經和我說過，
rock流的激烈music確實最能夠引起共鳴。
是因為足夠的激烈么？所以終于，不需要言語了嗎。

語言是一種陰謀。(from GRE某填空。。。-_-bbbbbbbbb)



karamitsuku koori no zawameki
koroshi tsuzukete samayou itsu made mo
UNTIL I CAN FORGET YOUR LOVE

nemuri wa mayaku tohou ni kureta
kokoro o shizuka ni tokasu
mai agaru ai o odorasete
furueru karada o kioku no bara ni tsutsumu
I KEEP MY LOVE FOR YOU TO MYSELF

* ENDLESS RAIN, FALL ON MY HEART kokoro no kizu ni
LET ME FORGET ALL OF THE HATE, ALL OF THE SADNESS

Days of joy, days of sadness slowly pass me by
As I try to hold you, you are vanishing before me
You're just an illusion...
When I'm awaken, my tears have dried in the sand of sleep
I'm a rose blooming in the desert

IT'S A DREAM, I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU
madoromi dakishimete

[* repeat]

I AWAKE FROM MY DREAM
I CAN'T FIND MY WAY WITHOUT YOU

[guitar solo]

THE DREAM IS OVER
koe ni naranai kotoba o kurikaeshite mo
takasugiru hai iro no kabe wasugi satta hi no
omoi o yume ni utsusu
UNTIL I CAN FORGET YOUR LOVE

[* repeat]

ENDLESS RAIN, LET ME STAY EVER MORE IN YOUR HEART
LET MY HEART TAKE IN YOUR TEARS, TAKE IN YOUR MEMORIES

* ENDLESS RAIN, FALL ON MY HEART kokoro no kizu ni
LET ME FORGET ALL OF THE HATE, ALL OF THE SADNESS

這幾天的狀態非常奇怪，我不確定是不是因為心理失落了什么。感覺心總是定不下來，
如果考試再要過2天的話我估計要囧大了。。。

也不一定，或許再拖兩天，由于極度的不安定與崩潰，使得原本的一切掩蓋、對抗或者逃避成為不可能，
在被完全毀滅的虛空之中，空性、慈悲與愛就會出現……
這就是，空即是色嗎？

悲傷的終點是愛，
有這種愛的地方，就有慈悲。                ——J. Krishnamurti

或者……
只有當你的心變得如頑石一般僵硬，甚至連祈禱都變得不可能時，你才能領會真愛以及向神求助是什么意思。
Prayer and love are learned in the hour when prayer has become impossible and your heart has turned to stone.

                                                          --THOMAS MERTON


而我所作的所有的事情，都在拒絕revolution么？都在試著維護原有的一切么？都在拒絕，真相么？

我有點明白2年前的我，為什么極力造就一種絕望的心緒。
我不知道該如何定義，但在絕對的純粹絕望之中（暫時這么稱呼吧），一切其他東西都沒有了生存的環境。
無論是憤怒、嫉妒，或是不安，躁動。
只剩下一種平靜的感覺，或許我們可以稱之為，慈悲，或者愛。

每天失眠，總是在12點，或是1點多，在很崩潰的感覺中打開燈，
翻開《圣經》，
sigh, 什么時候淪落為睡覺前一定要看一會兒圣經才能睡得著了。

約11:25, 26
耶穌對他說：“復活在我，生命也在我。信我的人，雖然死了，也必復活。凡活著信我的人必永遠不死。你信這話么？”


最近比較喜歡J.Krishnamurti……空性與慈悲的流露。
喜歡禪師，我不是指一定要出家修行的那些禪師，我泛指那些慈悲為懷，懷著感恩與菩提面對這個世界的人。那些可以反觀自我如空明之鏡，可以不染煙塵，直觀世界。
所以一直以為Carl Rogers是一個禪師。
其實他的共情(Empathy)，我以為，其實就是慈悲。
看到 Krishinamurti傳中的一段話：
我和Krishinamurti在一起已經兩個鐘頭，離開他的房間時，我的身體好像快要粉碎了，但是奇妙的治療效果卻因而產生。我接觸到一種嶄新的觀察和聆聽，其中沒有任何反應，似乎是從一個又深又遠的地方升起的。他不只察覺我的話中之話，還包括所有的表情、手勢和態度。

于是就覺得Rogers的心理治療過程驚人的一致呢（參見On Becoming a Person, 《個人形成論》）
依稀記得Rogers曾經表達過類似這樣的觀點：
當我們真正的了解自己和自己要做的事情的時候，我們就不會因為外界的批評、指責或者表揚、稱贊升起太大的情緒反應了，我們只是把它當作對自己所作事情的一種評判。
（好像表達的可能有點偏差。。。我要重新把那本書借來翻翻。。。-_-bbbbbbb）

但是，這里要求一種開放的覺知，當我試著做到這樣的時候，我總是發現我本質上是在我周圍建立起了一道封閉的墻，把那些評價擋在外面，籍此來維護我的立場，我的態度，我的想法。
我確信這樣是有問題的，但是。。。我不知道不這樣，如何防止被某些東西影響呢？……我暫時，終于不能做到反觀自我如空明之鏡呢。。。
于是我一邊封閉某些東西，防止塵埃的進來，
一方面又要適時的打開窗戶，否則生命就變成一潭死水。
艱難的尋找著兩者的平衡點。


暑假的計劃非常簡單，
GRE + 《數學分析原理》
據說這本書很強大……估計繼續看不完。。。
還有就是，對自我的覺察與反省。

p.s. 考慮先裝個OpenSUSE 11玩玩, 終于還是被gentoo崩潰了（主要是在canada發現有個東西沒裝，然后直接編譯了2個小時）。。。呼啦啦……

先列兩本書，有空的話暑假想掃一下。
都沒怎么讀過，不保證是好書～～～等我掃完了再決定是否推薦～～～

《近世代數概論》
http://www.douban.com/subject/2152447/
對這本書看著順眼的原因是當時掃了一下，發現他涵蓋了目前為止所有的代數學知識（線性代數等）
感覺其線性代數部分比我們學的要難，但又不像數學系的《高等代數》那樣過多東東。
總得說來是代數學的通論。
配合一下那本《數學分析原理》，看起來很完美～～～

《數理邏輯》
http://www.douban.com/subject/1729578/
還沒讀過，有空掃一下。
我實在是不理解為什么我們的數理邏輯要用泛代數來引入，其實本質上構造自由代數的過程就是數理邏輯的遞歸定義過程。
我承認構造自由代數的方式確實是個很漂亮的想法，但問題是，數理邏輯應該是最基本的體系吧（類似于集合論），它的用途是 1. 嚴密化直覺想法 2. 構造一套讓計算機來思考的系統。
對于(1)來說，拿泛代數來引入就很有問題，類似于用高等的東西論證最基本的東西，就好像我們拿現有的計算機來定義Turing Machine……而且我覺得泛代數在很大程度上分散了我們的注意力……。。。@_@
我記得《應用邏輯》中是使用表達式樹來引入的，然后還是有一些關于表達式樹的形式話定義和一些“看上去很顯然”的東東的證明的。基本上嚴密性還是得到保證的（其實本質上也是一個遞歸定義）。可惜那本書的重點不是傳統邏輯（你看名字都叫《應用邏輯》了是吧～）


考完試，終于可以把那本書給扔了。。。啦啦啦～～～
個人覺得對Mathematicas in Computer Science比Pure Mathematicas有愛的多。。。不知道為什么。。。@_@

想做到外化而內不化，
但seems很困難。。。
Thus...
讓我們先做到，外不化 + 內不化。

將access to computer的時間降到最低可能。
將上網降到最低可能。
因為我沒有足夠的力量，在開始上網/逛BBS后還能限制，
既然我無法對抗風，
那就讓一切，被封印在風起之前。


浮華的世界與我隔絕，
據說，
ascetic源自希臘文，
原意是，
“刻苦鍛煉并隱居的人”

Invictus

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

還不錯~~~書應該更贊吧...

p.s. 快期末考試了怎么感覺心浮氣躁...@_@
anyway...今天體育考試做俯臥撐我作的叫一個頑強啊。。。